Jealousy Takes Root In The Soil Of Insecurity

9:52 PM

Several weeks ago, I was sitting at a table doing my bible study (James: Mercy Triumphs by Beth Moore) when it asked me to recall a recent time where I experienced hardship. I thought for a moment and all I could think about was the way my hair felt that day. (It was not a good hair day.) Or my thought was about a boy. REALLY? A boy. Frustrated I turned to my roommate and asked her if she could think of anything I could write down. She turned to me, put her hand on my shoulder and said, "Gina, your parents just got divorced, and your dog died... etc etc." Stunned, I realized how stupid I had been. 

How easily selfish we become. How obsessed we become with ourselves. Our looks, our academics, our life. But it's not our own. It's God's.

When's the last time you had a very important decision to make...what was your first response?

A. Do what is logical, reasonable, realistic.

B. Do what feels right, what you want.

C. Consider what God wants. Pray about it, and ask Him to provide wisdom.

If I'm being honest, my first reaction is almost always either A or B, and because I'm especially selfish it ends up being B more often than not. It's only when I really consider it, do I choose C.

If I could just give God the control I would have no reason to worry or feel insecure. 

"Jealousy takes root in the soil of insecurity" - Beth Moore

I believe that selfish people are also insecure people. I wouldn't be so focused on myself if I was more secure.

And the worst part is, I consider myself a pretty confident person. But alas, even the most confident person can lose to deep insecurity. Don't try and control, let God take it over. 

"But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice." James 3:14-16

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  1. Gina I love you. This was the piece of wisdom I needed today :)


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Regina is a junior at a small college in the middle of nowhere. She dreams of moving to California, painting, writing letters, thrifting, and cuddling with a dog.

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